I texted Josh and asked if we could sit down tonight and talk about our schedules for the rest of the week. I don’t think we’re two ships passing in the night but two times today we passed each other on the road. I was coming back from practicum and he was off to meet a pastor for coffee to talk over a few things regarding the high school.

He said, yes, we could, after his school board meeting. We ended up having time before then. The second time we passed each other he was on his way back from meeting with the pastor and I was on my way taking one of the boys to practice and driving to the other school where another was going to get dropped off. I brought my books and didn’t read. Instead I walked for about twenty minutes.

I have this case study that needs to get done this week. Before we left from picking my son up at practice I texted the piano teacher and asked if it was possible to switch our lessons to another day. I was going to be dropping out, as well as the one who started high school. But the younger two could still come in the afternoon.

I enjoyed my practicum time today. I will be working with them two mornings a week. Today I was mostly shown around, sat in on sessions, and read the manual. It is a regular thing for them to have students. There was a med student who was also there. They also have nursing students who will be observing next week.

I’m still sorting out my first day thoughts, but the thing I have said and thought a couples of times is that if you are waking up, getting out of bed, putting clothes on your body and maybe even something (not illegal) in it, you are doing fantastic. There is this hyper-productivity culture that sets up so many crazily unrealistic expectations.

Really, I mean that. If you have anything that even slightly resembles a family, or a job, or a decently comfortable and nice place to live, we have so much to be thankful for. I was disappointed with quitting piano but I told him I didn’t have the bandwidth to make myself practice. If I’m ever going to do it will have to be on my own time later on.

The campus was pretty on my walk today. We did a lot of sitting this morning so it was nice move around and stretch my legs. Josh and I talked about how we were feeling the crunch of not having his mom there to help with the pick-ups and occasional rides. I know she misses the meets. They’re planning to get back to Springfield on Wednesday.

I wish it wasn’t so hard for me to work on my homework. I know I have to do it, so why don’t I just start it sooner? I am going to work on some tonight and try and get at least three pages accomplished. Something we do in group is set goals. They have to be measurable, and you say not what you might do, but what you actually will do.

If it was that easy then people wouldn’t be the places they are so often in. But I do think there is something to the goal setting and little steps toward progress. There are some things that I also think will always be hard no matter how much we grow. Those things will look different depending on the person. So maybe not three, but I will try.