I’m really liking the new windows in the dining room. Truthfully I have not had time to appreciate them much over the past few weeks. This morning I had practicum from 8:30-1. I came home, ate some lunch, and have been in bed mostly since. Sometimes it’s sleepiness, where I take a 20 minute nap and I’m good to go for the rest of the day. Other times like today it’s more bodily fatigue where I’m more twitchy and have that buzzing feeling in my limbs.

It’s days like this where I really question whether it’s even possible to do this full internship thing next semester. I’ve been leaning more lately toward wanting to do it. They’ve waived several of the normal internship requirements. It means we’d be able to continue with our current supervisor and site instead of having to find a new one. We also would be able to get started on acquiring our hours this semester as soon as we fulfill our hour requirements for practicum. As of now I’ve been cruising along at a comfortable 7-9 hours a week.

But now I feel this pressure like I need to hurry up and get going. The more time I would have this semester the better. In addition we would be able to accumulate hours over break. I tried to do some math to come up with a general estimate on what my weekly hour requirement would be if I could finish practicum and get started the week or two before Thanksgiving. Not including the weeks surrounding Christmas and New Year’s, and substracting the week of the spring intensive, it comes out to around 25 hours per week. When I calculated for a 16-week semester it came out to more around 35 but I also forgot to subtract the spring intensive week.

So school would basically turn into this nice little thing I’ve mostly been doing on the side to something that would take up a much larger part of my life. I get that people work full time 40+ hours a week all the time and still do other things in their life but that is not the life I have lived and frankly I’m not sure I could healthily do that. I also need to leave room for class time two nights a week plus the homework. I could maybe see me doing it if I lived in bed when I was home.

I don’t know. I am not needing to make any decisions this instant but I am hoping that as classes start back up again this week we’ll get a little more information regarding what our other options would be. In other correspondence it’s been said that any student who isn’t graduating would have an individualized plan already set up with a specific institution based on arrangements made by the school. I do miss the days of being more available for the wife and mom things.