It probably wasn’t realistic to say I wouldn’t talk about school. I kind of have to talk about it because it involves so much of what I’m doing right now. I think I’ve kind of downplayed the space this has been taking up in my life. At times it really doesn’t seem like that much. I consider it to be something that is feeding me and contributing to my health and well-being rather than something that is taking from it.

But there are times when it seems to be taking up more space, time, or energy than I currently have to offer. I felt a little validated when I added up the hours of weekly practicum and on-campus class time and it comes out to the close equivalent of a part-time job and that is not counting the outside time spent on homework. So I would say that especially this semester school has been between a full and part-time job. It helps to see it in that perspective and that the time I’m spending is contained in something.

I do still feel like I’m having some kind of increased “flare-up” of fatigue and the nervous symptoms. I just limit my activity and stay where I can rest. It still seems strange to me that these weird health things are even still something I’m dealing with. I’ve forgotten what it’s like now to have been the other way, where I didn’t think about and have to manage it daily. But even so there is blessing and I’m thankful for that.