I didn’t go to class tonight either. My paper wasn’t completely done and I needed to know I had more time to work on it. This morning before leaving for training I read one of the articles assigned from last week and the assignment made much more sense after that. I try to at least skim through the articles she posts.

This job environment is starting to feel more comfortable. I was kind of mad at myself for being impulsive and signing up for this. Josh’s dad has only been gone a little over a month. You’re not supposed to make major life changes during those sorts of times. There was a crap ton of stuff already going on and then I just added one more thing to the mix. The night after I interviewed with the nursing director, I had the worst series of nightmares I’ve ever had in my life. When I woke up my mind directly went to the interview. I was terrified the nursing director had been a witch and had cast a hidden spell upon me and tried to curse me in some way. I pretty quickly was able to tell myself that God does not send dreams like this.

The scheduling lady met with us individually to set up times to start to work on the floor. I told her I really couldn’t start until after this semester was over. That’s over a month away but I really can’t afford to take any more added time away from working on these bigger papers. And when I was looking at the rest of December, I wanted to tell her, “Well, I kind of need about 10 days leading up to Christmas to spend with my kids doing fun Christmas things.” And about 10 days afterward because that’s when I am usually exhausted or sick. But who in the real word would understand any of that?