Dad and the boys returned home last night around 10:45. He’d earlier again in the morning around 6 to pick up our oldest from school for spring break. One of the boys had rode along with him. The birthday cookies and presents were ready for us to celebrate once they arrived back home. The other boys who were home had set up a camp site in the raised yard behind the dining room. They wanted to sleep outside.

I finally consented. I wouldn’t have cared except for the fact that it was still supposed to be colder. At 1AM I woke up and went outside to check the fire. They were all asleep. I put some more logs on it and went back inside. At 3AM I woke up again and went back outside. This time one of them was awake and the two of us went up and down the stairs to replenish the woodpile. I came back in and moved my blankets and pillows downstairs. I had asked Josh earlier if he could check on them at five when he woke up.

So I fell asleep in peace and didn’t wake again until almost 7. Earlier today camp had their pancake breakfast between the 10-1 hours. Our maple taps are out now and the sap was boiling. We had a lot bigger yield this year. I was working on an assignment after wanting to redo it for a higher score. It still wasn’t great but maybe better. For whatever reason my brain just wasn’t having it with this particular assignment.

I went down to main camp to visit for a little while. I wanted to, yes, but I also am just tired of being the one who is habitually and oddly not present at events. I probably should’ve stayed home. The talking to people was great, but seemed slightly too much. For anyone who has not read my past two now deleted posts, I just haven’t been feeling that well again. I finally went to the store yesterday but not because I had the energy. The boys put it all away and we enjoyed the night. Elianna left to come home by 10.

The past two posts included me working out thoughts that have led me to the conclusion that basically, it isn’t normal to be so laid up in the time when you’re leading up to, on, and getting over your period. I’ve done the tracking. I’ve got the information, I just need to know what to do with it, to know what to do that could possibly change this. I am open to suggestions. I am looking into medicine. I just need to do something.

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I took a nap this afternoon. Their boys were having their joint birthday part at Grandma’s. Sometimes they’ve been with us on the actual day and other times it just works out better to combine and celebrate on a different day. I wanted to go but didn’t think I was up for going, not sure if it would make me feel worse or not. I told Josh I have no idea how I can go from feeling great and normal to feeling like this.

He said maybe it’s version of the flu that’s been going around, or maybe the mono coming back and getting retriggered. Or maybe depression. I thought maybe I had just overdid it on the walking, even though it felt fine at the time. He still had a sermon to write so we weren’t going to be staying super long at Grandma’s. Plus Laura was going to be there.

And this was going to be Ethan’s first time seeing the house. And my daughter asked me to go saying it would be fun and I could just sit in the chair if I wanted. I did decide to go and I am glad that I did. Grandma made supper for everyone and I felt okay enough to help clean up afterward. She had three barstools for us to work on to put together. The kids all helped and I helped too so I wouldn’t get antsy. It was a fun night.