I’ve mostly just been waiting for my non-sick thoughts to come back. As much as it isn’t hard to write here in terms of effort, it still involves energy, which at some times just feels like it needs to be preserved and kept in. I still have not been feeling well and there are plenty of things going around at the moment. At Contact tonight about half of the residents are quarantined in their rooms for having influenza A, so hopefully I have not just reinfected myself.

I’m not really happy with either one of my sites right now. Earlier today at Thrive the supervisor seemed grumpy and seemed to have forgotten that I was coming. And then I didn’t help things because I didn’t bring my laptop which would’ve been useful in having to download whatever software I’m supposed to be getting in order to be able to chart in their system. I just wish things were moving faster there because that is more the setting where I’d like to be getting experience.

Alexis and I were both sick on Tuesday so today was our first day working together. She already has several concerns about the site that she’s been talking about with her faculty supervisor. Supposedly they’ve been pulled as a site before because of several of the reasons she was bringing up, including not be able to get the required amount of supervision. The two new moms who moved in over break have a combined amount of eight kids who are all young.

It’s hard to meet individually or even hear they while they’re talking when having to filter out the kids. The moms I’ve met with up until this point have either only had one child or their children were old enough to hang out in the room by themselves for a while. At times it can be a very wearisome environment. The kid group meeting we had went well and I do like the experience and think it’s a good site, it’s just very niche and you have to be willing to accept it’s deficiencies.

Thrive is much more peaceful, I just can’t seem to break out of my timidity shell and be more open and assertive about what I am wanting, or be certain that more hours there is what I even want. I feel like I have this person inside of me who is personable and warm and would make a good counselor. It’s just hard to let other people see that for some reason. It snowed another inch or two this morning but the temps were not as cold as the past several days.