“For he himself is our peace…”
~Ephesians 2:14~

I don’t know if it’s the winter or what but it seems like my mind is offline these days. Like wherever I am I’m just not all there. It’s not even like there’s anything taking up brain space it’s just being a person moving along from one day to the next.

I have been obsessing about trying to get in more hours. With Alexis being there I feel like I need to clean up some of my more “getting by” procedures. I can’t even imagine failing over something like not having your written consent forms stored right but that kind of stuff I’m sure has happened. We’re not supposed to record videos on devices that are able to connect to the internet but the camera I bought is just awful quality compared to what I’ve been using. Lord please get me through these mountains.

This school thing really is starting to get to me. For our Monday class there was no lecture we were just given the class time to work on our project. For the night class where we mostly show videos the teacher wanted to lecture about self-care and vicarious trauma. I felt so bad for her that here she is actually caring and wanting to teach and there we were just checked out and over any kind of school for the day.

Josh is gone for the next several days in Nebraska. I dropped the boys off at my mother-in-law’s around 11 and picked them up a little after 8:30 at night. The bigger kids were at youth group and stopped by on their way home too. Zorro and everyone had a great day playing outside. She seems to like Zorro and not mind his dog-ness. They played frisbee and other games and they said he did not want to stop or go back inside.

So that was nice they could be there. She’s scheduled to watch them on Friday as well. There was a girl in my class saying how she gets $50 per client hour at her internship site in Peoria. She’s there five days a week and works close to full time so it’s pretty much a job. I think I would be completely blown away if I ever was to fully know the amount unpaid work I have done in my life. It is truly one of my spiritual offerings.