“…and the rest of my fellow workers, whose names are in the book of life.”
~Philippians 4:3~

Ethan and Laura changed their wedding to August 10th of this year. I’d been at complete and total peace about the later date for them. Several things went through my mind when he brought this up. The first was that this was going to make things more rushed. I don’t feel old enough to have a child who is trying to plan a wedding, finish college, and start his life. I just want so bad for things to go well for them.

Her dad already had a wedding on the 9th. So right at 22 years we’ll be repeating the process but with another generation (Lord-willing). They want to get married at camp and have the reception in the dining hall. Laura likes nice things but she doesn’t strike me as super extravagant. The CGC is already booked for the state fair group that comes and stays for two weeks every year.

So many things going on. The pull of my heart in so many directions. I feel like I’m just trying to find my footing in the world after death and rebirth. I trust the universe and all that. If I ever finish school then I have already decided that any work I do afterward will be my love offering back to God. Whatever work he’s done in me I will pass on to share with others. I feel sick and want to sleep but I carry on still while skies are calling.