Elianna and I made it to Gulf Shores. We left at 4:15 and arrived a little after 6PM. The first six hours of the trip flew by which is a benefit of leaving early and getting driving hours while it’s dark. We stopped at some terrible gas station with no coffee and dirty bathrooms and that’s when things started to becoming rougher between us.

I’m realizing you can think that you are basically healed and then wake up to realize there is still a lot down there. I can feel like I’m surrendered and seeking God for fulfillment and then all of a sudden be wondering why it still seems to me even now that God is not enough and that I actually still crave and desire things from people.

But all of that is about me and I am not the only person who exists in the world or who hurts. That helps for a little while to take my eyes off myself. I’m still asking God, in the exact same place it seems, to heal and take away this pain. In the meantime I’m going to try my best to have fun and be grateful for the time that we get to have here.