I quit my Contact site this afternoon. After getting back from Thrive where there was yet another cancellation, I opened the computer and wrote an email to the faculty supervisors who deal with the site placements. I didn’t feel like it was my place to go into great detail, but by the time it was all said and done I concluded by saying that I would not recommend it as a site to other students or for the school to keep using.

My head has been so wrapped up in this I’ve hardly thought or written about anything else. I’m not even overthinking or wondering if I was rash or have made a big mistake by leaving. It was a just a hard no and I am not looking back. There is an image of a woman that is etched in my mind. Last night I walked up to the door and she was sitting outside smoking a cigarette. I sat down in the chair across from her and we spoke.

I feel like I was given a good conclusion there. The other site has its own frustrations and things I am dealing with. I couldn’t even bring myself to get up from my chair when the person I was supposed to meet with did not show up. It’s like this horrible feeling of I don’t even know. I’m not even overthinking this either. It’s like that part of my brain has shut off and I’m not trying to understand or unpack it. This is just what presently is.