This morning Jezebel got thrown out of a window and eaten by dogs. I didn’t get much farther than that. The boys picked it up from there and I went back to my own writing or scheduling or whatever it was I was doing. It’s never all that important. Later we went for a walk down to the lake and enjoyed the nice day. I reminded them we were almost done with the school year, more as a reality check for myself that yet another year…

Zorro went a little crazy. Usually he does okay but sometime he gets wilder on walks. I finally told one of the boys to listen to me and let him off of the leash and stop trying to wrestle him. I don’t know if that was my natural instincts coming through or just the mom fear showing up and emasculating my son when he was trying to be strong. I kind of felt like sometimes it’s like people where you need to step away and take a break.

We had Italian beef for lunch that one of the cooks had leftover. It was actually good but I did not have time to eat much of it. It was too hot when I sat down and didn’t have time to let it cool. I had a dream last night of being late for my assessment, trying to figure out what to wear, fighting the slowness of dream time to not be late but I somehow still was. I was 20 minutes early and thank the Lord this one showed up.

I liked him. I always like these people and wish I could be with them longer. This time was almost two hours so that really was plenty after the probably hundreds of questions you have to go through and ask. I really just can’t help feeling like the other shoe is going to drop there. I pretty much told him that if I haven’t gotten any clients by the summer term then I’m just going to take that as a sign I’m supposed to move on.

It wasn’t said like an ultimatum but more just an acknowledgment that I can’t deny the obvious. Dad and I went to a visitation this evening for a former camp worker. He was one of the six adults who worked here when we were in college and fully realized how great we had it. He drilled tin cans into the dock poles so I’d no longer drop my radio/walkie talkie into the lake. It was a fabulous invention and worked many wonders.