“…not for shameful gain, but eagerly…”
~1 Peter 5:2~

Ethan and Laura are looking for a place to live. The plan was to wait until April when the apartment complex people said to call back. Dad encouraged Ethan that he really should be taking this on as his project, since he is living in the town and Laura is busy with school, work, and many wedding plans. I’m not sure what it is with the men, where it seems like you need to nudge them more. Not with everything, just certain things.

Dad got a call this morning from a church member saying that another church member had been on hospice for two months. The staff at the facility where she was at had said she likely did not have much time left. He didn’t even know at first who this person was, but when he looked them up in the old directory he remembered. He left very soon to visit with this woman who was alone in her room until the roommate came back in.

They went through the Commendation of the Dying. He’d been home again about an hour when he told me her husband called and said they must’ve just missed each other and that the lady has passed. The husband was sitting with her when it seemed to him she’d stopped breathing. He went and got the nurse and it was confirmed that yes, she’d died. Josh said he promised if I was ever on hospice, he’d be there by my side.

I said would you be able to handle me being mad at you for getting to live instead of me? He laughed and said something about not being excited to go see Jesus. It couldn’t be ruined by us getting in a fight, not that close to the very end. But if I died suddenly then it wouldn’t matter. Later I was back in bed crying, only momentarily, saying to him “I just want to die! I’m tired of this life!”, with all it’s stupidities and ways of suffering.

I’ve been thinking I should write up something for Ethan and call it something like Husband Lessons, breaking it down into five different categories. There are things they learn from Dad and things I feel they can learn from Mom. How it comes out, whether in written form or simply verbal is probably yet to be determined.