“And the four living creatures said, ‘Amen!’ and all the elders fell down and worshipped.”
~Revelation 5:14~

I found myself drifting into fantasies of learning the business and computer things. The normal desk person, grateful for the flexibility but struggling to stay reliable and up-to-date with her tasks, was going to quit to be home with her kids more. She would train me and I could learn and it would suck but I could do it. I hate being incompetent and having to ask for repeated instructions but these sorts of things don’t stick in my mind.

And I would come back to group being a new and improved version. I can hardly stand being away and I thought to myself I’m just going to show up. But I can do this, it’s only ten or so days more until we can go back and I finally realized what I was doing, that my mind was once again working to hijack my life. I caught myself and prayed to God, “Take away these longings, these thoughts” and to my surprise and peace he did.

So then I just had a normal day of doing the house things. The boys are officially done with school and we debriefed on their book and how the school year had gone. Their school mostly consisted of self-led learning which I do not think is a bad thing and it’s how things had to be done with the older ones. My goal is to finish decluttering the living room including dusting the surfaces and cleaning the baseboards and floors.