We had our first day of internship class today. I was ready to go back and I like my new group. Alexis is in there along with other people I’ve met from the program. Two of the people were supposed to have graduated but failed a test or a presentation. Another one had worked to get things done to graduate early but the school changed that policy in the middle of things for him so now he has to wait until the spring for graduation.

One of the guys in there is all about honesty and vulnerability with his feedback. We had to set “class expectations” where we all discuss and come up with a plan for what the group rules for our class and interactions. I like it because it feels like negotiation within a relationship where you know what your needs are and your wants are and are able to express them ahead of time. It’s just the ways you adapt and learn to do things.

He likes to be the “black hat” and be the constructive criticism giver. Last time I was with him he told me I could have more confidence. I’m kind of tired of hearing that now so I’m going to try to be better with my sessions and figure out what that means. I really enjoyed the one I had on Monday and felt like it was a successful session and most of all a helpful one. When it was done it felt as though I hadn’t spent any energy at all.

Like nothing had left me. Today though I was completely exhausted and ended up taking three different naps. I think that had more to do with the walking, rebounding, and paddle boarding with my sister and brother. So that was probably too much but it still was fun and felt good. Today they took a day trip down to see my parents. My dad is recovering and doing physical therapy and mom is taking care of him and the garden.

They came back tonight and we went to chapel. There was a storm blowing but it was only the wind. You couldn’t hear the girl giving the devotion. I thought it so strange how your job as mom becomes obsolete. They no longer need you. I know we have different jobs as things change but it was truly an odd realization. I saw the backs of their heads and some were still sitting next to me but it was okay not to walk them home.