We were talking about money, quarterly payments and others. I still have my college fund that I opened a few years ago. I loaded it up with a loan that I used for my tuition and Ethan’s. That has now been used up and I have no regrets. The Lutheran High tuition has always come straight from our bank account. I think people sometimes think that we must have gotten help from his parents but we have paid for that all our own.

But the numbers now just do not crunch as easily. I just made a payment for Elianna’s Penn Foster online veterinary technician program tuition. It’s a self-paced program that on average is completed around two years. I spent $2,500 on my somatic practitioner certification courses and I do have some slight regrets about that, only because I can see myself just never finishing or never using it. I’m about 33% done with one of two.

So after thinking about all this I finally said, “You know, I’m just going to have to suck it up and work more.” I was meaning signing up for some 4-hour shifts, which I’ve only done one of this summer. My boss sent a text that I never replied to but in this case I am glad I didn’t because those were the dates we’re supposed to be moving Ethan and Laura’s stuff to Nebraska. Ethan was supposed to have his Detwiller race again then.

And I tried to figure out a way where both things could still happen, where we could rearrange the moving dates and he could still run the race. But the obvious easy/hard thing was that he was going to have to just not run the race. I was actually kind of sad about it, while at the same time realizing this is just the start of the sacrifices he will have to start making and this is what he is signing up for and is how life sometimes is.

Sometimes the sacrifices hurt a little and I feel like that is what it’s like with the work. It has been wonderful not having the financial pressure or need to go out and get a job to earn money. We have always been very compatible this way where the money things do not cause problems and we both understand we’re not going to be rich or overly wealthy with dollars. We have prioritized our kids and there is nothing I regret with that.