Sometimes when I pray about something I don’t feel a need to pray about it again. I had a follow up doctor appointment in the morning to check on the thing in my lung that they had seen back in November. It was the same as it was before. I said, “So does it just stay in there now?” or “So what causes this again?” It says it is probably from an older infection that I had at some point in my life. It isn’t causing pain or problems.

But he is sending me to a thoracic surgeon just to have him look at it. If something would ever have to be done then he is the one who would have to do it. But sitting in the office, I wasn’t praying. It was almost like there was nothing to say, for I had already said it. I have felt something similar as the wedding gets closer and there are still things to do. The prayers for the details, for the marriage itself, all of this has been prayed.

So now we just walk in the peace that God gives us. I have felt the block in both ways, where there are no words to pray because you’re too distressed or strained to speak. And other times you think, “Should I be praying about this more?” or you try to pray and there really aren’t words. The task in those times, at least for me that I have found, is not to pray but to walk, or just sit quietly in the room because the task is already done.