I didn’t know whose job it was going to be to do it but somebody was going to have to go get the power washer from Grandma’s garage and spray off the scum that’s been growing on the front of the house all summer. If all of these people are supposed to be driving by our house tomorrow it will at least have the decency of looking somewhat maintained. So Elianna picked it up and Dad and a few of the kids helped get that done.

It does look better now. I made two phone calls today for emotional support. The first was to my aunt who I called in the morning. The second was to my mom who I called in the afternoon. Sometimes you just feel like nobody gets it and like there is no one there to encourage you or bear you up when you need it. Or even just to be present. So I was glad they were able to be there and talk. This culture, this lonely, isolated way, it’s too much.

It’s not enough. Laura came over while I was vacuuming the ottoman. It was actually kind of funny because it was the big vacuum I was using. I sometimes like having the vacuuming cat lady mom role but I actually do like the gentle mother in law role too. She was doing well and feeling pretty good and calm about things. She’s worked so hard to make things ready I just pray that it can be a wonderful, beautiful day for them and all.