I think I am finally over this ridiculous infatuation that’s been taking up way too much headspace for, let’s see, almost a year now. Whenever I’m driving in there my head concocts these conversations. In the middle of the night over the past month or so I’m still thinking about it, what I’m going to say or how I’m going to bring this up. How I’m finally going to say, “You know what? I can’t take this any longer. I’m going to quit.”

Finally I was just like, “God, just give me the words when the time comes. I don’t need to be spinning around or thinking through every possible scenario. Just let me fall asleep.” You know, would you believe that works a lot of times? One of the points of supervision is to be able to talk through your client cases and receive support when you’re starting out. I continue to be amazed by things people carry and deal with in their lives.

So Arya is the new intern this time. It’s nice again to have a student. I’ve been starting to worry that I’m repeating what happened at Contact, where I’m making excuses for the supervisor and taking the new person under my wing. I’m planning on asking for input when I do supervision with the teacher. Like somehow there has to be grace for a person and also the room to say, “Um…so…your flaws are causing suffering for people”.