That last part wasn’t right because I was trying to hurry up and finish. It’s not that I’ve got this and will do a good job. It’s more akin to what Dallas Jenkins says when he talks about bringing his five loaves and fishes. It’s more like saying, “This is what I have…so…here” and then offering what I have. I wouldn’t even use the word give. Giving to me gives me a vision of pushing something forward to someone in front of me.

Offering to me is more of a lifting up. It’s a vertical motion. I think the point that I was trying to make with the two previous stories was that “It might not always be comfortable but I don’t want to hold back”. That was the thing about Charlie K as I have watched and listened to his videos. I actually thought he was kind of a butthead sometimes. But he was courageous, and unafraid to be who he was without fear.

So I guess I’m hoping to be a little bit more like that. All the doubt and second-guessing can be crippling at times. Like I truly do not even care about “excellence” or “mastery” anymore in these days. Or changing the dressing on the PICC line or working on REACH. I resist change so much sometimes because the projected outcome in my head does not match up with what I want. But the burning inside is not livable either.