It finally rained. Every night when I tuck in the boys I tell them to empty the two dehumidifiers. Even when it doesn’t rain there still is the moisture in the air. Sometimes I will empty one before I go upstairs. There is a sink in the laundry room where I alternate between using that and the tub. I keep thinking maybe when school is over then things will be better, I can give more time here. Better is always for a future time.

I showed a second video in class this evening. Thank the Lord we only have to do four videos now instead of six. I had actually thought of saving this one for my grid but I wanted to go ahead not hold it back. The part that I thought was the best part of the showing was the part the instructor had the most (constructive) critical feedback on. He sensed an incongruence, if ever so slight, between the counselor’s words and the client’s experience. He heard struggle in the client’s voice, but I was reflecting back positivity and hope. One of things I said to her was, “The denial is starting to fade”.

Because after months of longing and wishing there was finally this tiny moment of acknowledgment that the “joy” she feels from her (adult) life-long drinking is not actually worth the long term pain. I told him that before I leave here I want at least an 8 or 9 out of ten on these videos. They aren’t graded or ranked. So when I asked what it is I needed to have more of he said it basically comes down to emotional processing.