One of the saving graces of this semester is the teacher cancelling class every so often on Mondays. The Tuesday teacher does not cancel and does not let us out early. The Wednesday class is considered a hybrid and so sometimes like this week we do not have to go in for class. This week we’re meeting via Zoom. Our supervisor is gone for the week so I have the entire week off from any group or client sessions.

So that was very relieving and opened up some needed space. This time of year always feels so congested and brings with it a dread of all the things that must be done. I know the holidays probably aren’t supposed to feel that way. Today I broke things down into a four part to-do list with the things I am hoping to get done with the extra time this week. I had the major urge to clean in our basement so that’s where I started.

There is a lot of undone work from the time when I couldn’t do as much. My sister asked if things feel lighter with the kids being older and more of them gone. Lighter is not the right word. More empty, yes. But I have more hope that having a tidy home again is possible. That all these projects, bursts of energy, and throwing away of nerf bullets and board games is where I am today in this leg of the race here.