I believe in the sun,
even when it’s not shining
~Kim Andre’ Arnesen, Even When He is Silent~

We haven’t seen the sun very much in several weeks. Our holiday festivities are almost over, to be finished after tonight when we have Christmas at the farm house. My daughter says there will be plenty to do. We made a dessert this afternoon and I wrapped the two camp blankets that we are giving to my nieces. I feel like this side of the family gets the shaft with my gift-giving. They are better at it than we are.

My mind is not exactly in the gutter but my mood and happiness seems to be at the moment. It’s not from anything anyone did. There isn’t anyone who can fix it. My long texts to my sisters have gone unanswered which is when I know I’m truly alone and other things are happening where they do not have the capacity. It’s not their fault. There aren’t enough listening ears in the world to take away this need I feel.

That sounds so gloomy (enter laughter, faint smile).