We had a good New Year’s Eve. Minus the part about feeling like a complete schmuck regarding the gift situation and determining never to let myself be so thoughtless again, I had a good time and I think others did too. The boys stayed overnight and Josh and I left about 11:20 to get us home with ten minutes til midnight. I Facetimed Elianna so we could still countdown together. After that we made New Year’s love and went to sleep.

We talked in the morning about New Year’s ideas and goals. Both of us had something about being intentional parents. I started a Whole30 group with some of my family. After the holiday feasts and indulgences it’s nice to me to shift gears into simpler, nourishing way of being. I finished one Gottman certification class and am working now on the second. I’m only going to go through the first two levels and not do the third.

It’s been helpful and I’m learning things. I have a meeting with the Hope supervisor on the 5th. I’m looking forward to getting some clarity on what this all is going to look like. I still think about Thrive, wondering how all of it could possibly work. Some seasons, for whatever reason, are harder to let go of. But I would rather have the clarity over living under some delusion that something is meant to be when it’s not. Sobriety is better.