My body and mind are still in a swirl from the changes. Yesterday I had three couple sessions along with two individual ones. I’m finding four to five sessions a day to be the current sweet spot, and preferably never more than four in a row. The expectation at Hope is that I will eventually average 18 sessions a week. That isn’t even possible right now because of the office space situation. I think they should have a lesser option.

Meaning an option where people could average 12-15 sessions a week, or even 10-12. With three women now who are pregnant and planning on taking maternity leave, I feel like it might be a better option for the women who might want to cut back on their hours once the babies are born. This would not be as big of a deal if I was not also trying to keep space or a day for the people at Thrive. I really enjoy my people there.

The older clients, as in the ones I’ve seen for longer, seem almost effortless compared to the new ones I’m seeing. There’s something about having to start all over, which I wouldn’t have anticipated and am learning as I go. I still really love the familiarity of Thrive while I am also really enjoying the newness and expansion of opportunities at Hope. I like that I’ve been able to jump right into gaining hours and more experience.

I just need the exhaustion to start to ease up. I feel like I’m back in that place where it’s my full time job to take care of myself. It’s fine to a point, but there are still people here who need food, attention, and a wife and mother who is functioning. I guess there is a part of me that does just need to be thankful that they can all self-manage and are fine just hanging out with each other, the guys. I just miss them and time keeps on passing.

My aunt has one of those sayings that goes something like, “If He leads you to it, He’ll lead you through it”. It’s a thought and attitude I return to and it brings me peace to be there. One of the clients from today got me thinking about what it would look like to do therapy intensives with individuals. You could spend a day or several hours doing therapy with one person which would allow for greater progress without all the breaks.