It’s been great not having to worry about school. I didn’t feel like it was super stressful but I didn’t realize how much time it was taking up in my life. My online somatic class is finished and the certificate is in the mail. I used to think and dream up what I could do to go back for more school. But I don’t even have the faintest desire right now. What I want to do right now is putting the things I have learned into use. More school right now would only be a way to avoid any movement forward.

It is weird though because it some ways it feels like I haven’t any goals. With nothing to actively work on what am I supposed to do to keep busy? There’s a part of my brain that feels so fried and I don’t know if it’s from doing the school, or social media, or just being a dull person with not much to write or think about. Social media is pretty boring to me and I don’t really spend that much time reading.

Like I said, I have taken in a lot, I am ready to process it and use it. I feel like I am getting to do that now with my job. A lot of it is simply being brave enough to try.