Last night the boys had a meet in Carlinville. It’s one of the bigger meets on the schedule so the kids plan to try and do their best in their main events. Sometimes at smaller meets they will run different things for the experience. Elianna came back from the team camp saying the 4×4 team was in shambles. Judah was sick with another cold. One was nursing a bruised heel. Another hadn’t brought anything warm and was huddled up under one of those super thin foil survival blankets.

The coach had also given him his sweatshirt. They want so bad to go to state but have not yet run the state qualifying time and even if they do, it would only count if they can do it at sectionals. The top two places in every sectional event go to state. They already know they will not make the top two which is how Ethan’s team was able to go when they went and came in second to Auburn. I never saw that race but thankfully Miles’ mom had recorded it and put it on his YouTube channel.

John was trying for a sub 5 mile but ended with 5:09.7 and won his heat. There was a super fast guy in the 800 who was trying to run a 1:50. I kid you not he ran a 1:55 and blew everybody out of the water. I remember him from cross country and I think he won a distance title somewhere in the past year or so. Josh said while I was filming him, “Can you imagine if there was some girl I was obsessed with….”, something like that. I have thought before that I really need to be obsessed with him more.

It’s kind of become the joke that there’s always some high school runner I’m crushing on. I said, “I don’t know. It’s never happened so I don’t know how I’d respond.” Since he’s not really the outgoing type I’ve never worried about him cheating. I had my youngest son be the Ethan Facetimer this time so I could video the boys’ races. I’ve told the boys we should make a YouTube channel so we have somewhere to put these. I of course have zero videos of Elianna running which now as I am typing that out makes me sad. I didn’t realize how much I would miss it and wish I had been there more.

Elianna and John went to Dairy Queen before the 4×4 race. I didn’t think they’d be back in time but they were. They boys ran well but were three seconds slower than Rochester. The one without warmth ran almost the whole lap without a shoe after it had flown off after starting. They got second so that was still good. We packed up the cars and found the boys and then began the trip home. I left one use my phone to play chess but I was too tired to play with him. By midnight we were home.

Today was the first day I’ve ever been chewed out by a patient. I’m not sure if chewed out is the right term. It was more like a laying into about her anger and extreme displeasure regarding something I would not do. I went out into the office area to ask if the interim supervisor was available. She was not in today. I asked if any other counselor was open at this time to see if I could find someone else to come in and be a witness. One of the office women went and got one of the other managers.

I felt like she had seen my deep distress and gotten help. So I was grateful for that. It’s too much to go into but basically I felt like I was caught inside an ethical dilemma. This woman has caused me to tear up one other time in a one-on-one session because she is the only person I’ve ever worked with to this point who possess zero insight into her own flaws. If you can’t see your flaws…I didn’t even know how to handle that.

So that was extremely disturbing. Before our sessions she asks me to pray so I do and did this time too. With her I always ask that the Holy Spirit would guide our sessions. So I know too that he was helping me to be peaceful and loving during the time with her. She had also brought her husband unexpectedly. I had to keep going and do an intake after that and then another individual session. The angry woman ended up leaving early and I think I’ve decided to tell her I’m not going to see her anymore.