Dad and the kids went to go see fireworks in town tonight. Miles’ parents invited us. I came home from work today and ate something then laid down. I stayed there through supper which was down at the dining hall for the camp staff. Today was a good day but the weeks are still tiring. My favorite part about my job, if I had to pick today, would be getting to use my mind. My second favorite is being hospitable to the people who come especially when they bring a friend or family member.

We have graduation parties tomorrow so I am saving my social energies and stayed home from the outing. I was going to start reading in this somatic therapy toolbox book I’ve been wanting to dive into. I did read some of it. Zorro is outside so I will take him for a walk. But it’s late already and I am ready to settle down and go to bed. Earlier in the evening I cleaned up the laundry room and entry way spaces to get a head start on the Saturday cleaning since we will only have the morning.

I feel like I need to say this and then just keep moving forward. But I have felt a big relief since breaking away from the Thrive thing. Nothing was going to fix the frustration of not having a legitimate outlet to channel my feelings. And I was tired of feeling miserable for it. I’m just grateful to have had like I said, that sudden burst of clarity and total change in what I wanted. The Matthew Perry book helped. It made me realize that years of wasted love was not what I wanted for my life.