Today I met with one of my Thrive clients. It was nice to have everything switched over without it being too much of a hassle. I’m just a little–annoyed is not the right word–that I have to be going through this right now. With this person on my mind and the no contact not helping. Honestly just hearing me say that is enough to keep pushing me on. Again, it’s just one of those things I suffer in silence except for the rarer times when I break out about it.

Today is the 20th anniversary of Brandon passing away. My sister and I talked on the phone about it and I brought it up to the boys this evening when we were sitting in the living room. They don’t usually know what to say since they didn’t know him. I told them it would be like if Miles died. Twenty years is a long time to be past something like that. Really it gave me the gift of having the wisdom to number my days.

Tonight is the other generations camp. It’s always nice to see people we know and talk about the old and also the current days of camp. I tell the ones who come that we do appreciate them making the effort. I don’t know too many people who choose to sleep in a fairly comfortless cabin with two of their kids for two days. Actually it’s only one overnight. It’s rained for much of the day and we’ve enjoyed a milder week for summer weather which is always a relief.