This was a fun night. Danny, Tim, and their mom came over for birthday dessert time. Danny and Tim are former campers who used to come to joyful hearts week. Their mom is a Methodist minister who still takes care of her sons even though they are in their 50’s and 40’s now. For the past several years we’ve been getting together in March because Danny shares a birthday with one of the boys. He invited himself over.

I’m so glad we didn’t do supper because I was not in a place to make it. Josh and the kids went out with Grandma and I stayed home and stayed in bed. It was combination of depression and being up since 2:45. I laid there for almost two hours and then decided to get up and clean. I was going to start purging more homeschooling books in the basement but I ended up in the kitchen washing down the cupboards instead.

My grandma had another memorial service today in New York. Dad and the boys were out with some helpers doing a controlled burn on the new property. That took most of their day and even though it was time-consuming I think they enjoyed it. Elianna took care of Zorro and made a meal plan for the week, a grocery list, and then grocery shopping. I have no idea how she can just do those things and make it seem so easy.

I was again amazed at the life of my grandparents. They held the service in the church that I’m still in love with and that they helped plant. I am not the only one who feels this away about this church, even though people have spread their wings and migrated to other churches and places. The mentoring gifts of my grandparents are completely other-worldly. They made humble, grateful, Bible-believing, deeply changed disciples.

Like how cool is that? I didn’t mean what I said about the therapy garbage. Basically I’d been talking with my sister about how there comes this point where the things that helped you before, those supports you needed, are just not needed anymore. I’m ready to share what I’ve learned and been given, not just keep consuming the same old things for myself. They say in sobriety world that in order to keep it you have to give it away.