Oh my goodness, where do I start. I don’t have words yet to describe how special and wonderful the wedding day was. First and foremost, I want to say thank you to God for the beautiful weather. There was absolutely nothing we could do about it however it was going to turn out. But the day was sunny with a more than light breeze which made the not too bad heat even that more less noticeable. The winds made the trees sing.

But you could still hear everything. When Laura walked down the aisle I did not look at my son. I know that’s what people do, they look at the groom to see what his reaction is to her. I wanted to look but I was in the front row on the end and I didn’t want to be disrespectful to Laura as she was walking down looking beautiful and radiant, to no surprise. But people told me he was grinning from ear to ear and looked very happy.

And how that’s just kind of how he looked the whole time. I just could not stop smiling, thankful he so happy. I had told him before he walked me down the aisle to the front, that if he felt any emotion, that it’s okay, just let it show. I was imagining like if he were to get choked up when he saw he not to hold it back but just to let people see it. I wasn’t even thinking about the emotion of happiness or that it would be the one to see.

I did not cry the entire day. I didn’t really feel a need to. The day before I’d cried a lot after we had gotten home from the rehearsal. It was the feeling you get when something special is over and something that you have been looking forward to and putting effort and time toward. Like, it just happened so fast and then it was over and people were gone again and the building was empty. The colors, the pictures, the love.

So then I thought, well maybe that was it? Like maybe I’d gotten it out and wouldn’t have to worry about it again the next day. Throughout the day I was basically calm and relatively free of any nervousness. Instead I just felt warm and at peace in the world. There are so many details I don’t want to leave out. The only time I sort of cried was when the couple had left, and I walked back in and saw all of the work Laura had done.

The details she had worked so hard on through the week. The signs, the cakes, the seed packets, the bouquets. Like, you really can put your heart and soul into something and them some. And you do it because you want to and because love is pushing you forward. I think the river of life is going to be made when the tears of the saints are crying final tears of joy at the sight of God’s remade world. “Finally”, we will say at last.

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Nothing New by Brandon Lake

It feels like all the songs have probably all been sung
But I wanna bring you something true
Something that moves you
I don’t have all the words
To tell you how much you’re worth
But I wanna bring you something true
Something that moves you

From the dawn to the dusk of my days
From the depths of my soul, and with all of my strength
Here is my heart in just one phrase
“I love you, I love you, I love you”
When I say it, I mean it, it’s true
And I hope you can see it in all that I do
I know it might be nothing new
But I love you, I love you, I love you, I do

Now I’m sure the angels sing beautiful melodies
But I wanna bring a song that’s mine
For the rest of my life
Oh, I wanna bring a song that’s mine
For the rest of my life

From the dawn to the dusk of my days
From the depths of my soul, and with all of my strength
Here is my heart in just one phrase
“I love you, I love you, I love you”
When I say it, I mean it, it’s true
And I hope you can see it in all that I do
I know it might be nothing new
But I love you, I love you, I love you, I do

All it took was a little flame, a little flame
All it takes is a little faith, a little faith
What a joy, what an honor that I can say
I get to wake up to your beautiful face
All it took was a little flame, a little flame
All it takes is a little faith, a little faith
What a joy, what an honor that I can say
I get to wake up to your beautiful face

From the dawn to the dusk of my days
From the depths of my soul and with all of my strength
Here is my heart in just one phrase
“I love you, I love you, I love you”
When I say it, I mean it, it’s true
And I hope you can see it in all that I do
I know it might be nothing new
But I love you, I love you, I love you, I do, oh!

Oh, I love you, I do
And it’s nothing new, but still I choose, I love you
I love you
I love you, I love you, I love you, I do