My Garmin watch lasted less than a month. At the end of our staff meeting today I walked outside to our van. I had an arm full of stuff like my planner, a pencil, my watch, my phone, my keys and those sorts of things. I thought I heard something drop but didn’t think much about it. As I pulled out of my parking spot I felt and heard a crunch. I drove a little ways and stopped to look behind me to see what it was and sure enough I saw my aqua watchband on the ground. I went back to pick it up.

So that was disappointing and I was kind of mad at myself. Josh said now I know what to get him for father’s day. I thought he was being super romantic and saying that me buying myself a new watch would be one of the best father’s day gifts he could get because of how happy it’d make me. I think that’s sort of what he meant. He said he meant I could buy it for him but then I would just take it and use it and eventually keep it for myself like I do his other things, like his laptop that I use for work.

The summer is moving along. It really is kind of crazy to have the kids all in the house again. This will probably never happen again to have them all here this long. Besides being extremely grateful that Laura is not allergic to cats, and having to deal with the basement that finally flooded again after rains of not doing it, I think it’s going okay. The boys are staying busy with their brotherly fellowship. It warms my heart to still see them playing (not video games as much) and spending time together.

Today Elianna and I filled out an application to the community college. The online program she’s been doing has not worked out. It’s been such a pain in the rear to get an internship figured out that she’s more than decided that she doesn’t want to do that anymore. After several months of shadow days she doesn’t think she would enjoy working in a veterinarian’s office. Now she says she wants to be a dog trainer. That is what seems fun to her and like something she could imagine herself doing.

As much as I’ve had a few rants here and there about the college systems and prices, I really had to fight with her to get her to see the value in still completing some kind of degree. I was struggling to come up with a good reason other than it just seemed intolerable to me that my intelligent daughter wouldn’t finish at least some college. We finally explained it in a way that made sense, that an associates degree would preserve the credits she’s already taken before and in this other program.

During the meeting the new supervisor started talking about wanting to hire a psychiatric nurse practitioner. For a second I felt so disregarded as far as what I could bring to the table. I was thinking that maybe I should try to get my NP degree so I could partake in this particular stream of income potential. For a few seconds perhaps. But managing people’s psychiatric medications would be so far down on the list of enjoyable ways to spend my life, there’s no way it would even make the list.

So I am not going to do that. I made my first student loan payment today and I’m going to work on that instead. I really am just in a natural state of accepting everybody.