This afternoon after work the boys had their annual 4x400m relay. They had their baton this time so that was good. The track where we usually do it is under construction so we went to the SHG high school and used their track. According the to the boys, SHG doesn’t care about their track team which is why their track has no stands on anyway on the side to sit. Instead of filming from the middle top of the stands I was at the start line and filmed from there. I think they were happy.

I’m still thinking about one of the patients I saw today and it is not uncommon for me to think about him for the rest of the day. I feel like today was the farthest I’ve gone with trying to incorporate my somatic tools and be brave enough to teach it to somebody else. It just takes me getting over this hump and not holding back when I think there is something that could actually help someone. There is a balance between talking and simply being in the moment without feeling like I need to explain.

He’s very handsome but it isn’t like that, even though there is some kind of felt longing where I am wanting to connect but in an unexplainable, pure way. After the relay the girls and I went to Target to finish finding gifts for my sister who is having her bridal shower tomorrow. It’s a bit of a drive to get up there but I would not want to miss it. Tonight we watched the brothers 4×4 videos from the past four years so that was fun. It’s kind of silly to watch them but it is a way to bond as a family.